Translation: “I’ve caught the tail end of October 7th, it’s a bit late, isn’t it
Originally I was thinking, what if I just pretended that I was too busy yesterday and I didn’t have enough time
Actually, it was that I was so nervous that my mind was completely blank, so I slept to escape
So I could numb myself for a bit hahaha
But everyone seems to be waiting for this year’s little birthday essay
So while wishing myself a happy birthday
I will randomly send a couple of free-writes that I’ve done before
September 2017, night
Another day in the practice room
The moon tonight is really round
The air outside is really fresh, it makes people yearn
In the moment that I took off my clothes that are completely soaked
I suddenly thought, what if I just ran out like this without a care, without thinking about anything
I know that I have less time compared to other people, I need to work hard
I can’t control the trembling in my two legs
I know that the years are short and precious, I don’t want to lower my head and admit defeat, I need to persevere
In the early morning, I posted a status to encourage myself, but the next day, my physical condition was a wake-up call
Really hurts, really tired, really helpless, I don’t want to lower my head and admit defeat, I need to keep persevering
but this is a bit embarassing, right…
September 2017
Today is finally the first day of the MV shooting.
I have insomnia again
Emotional, nervous, the exciting yet familiar ‘action’ started
These years since debut, I’ve experienced so many shootings
But this time the feeling is completely different, full of confidence yet still uneasy
After two days of shooting, the habitual ‘Thank you everyone, you’ve worked hard’ comes to an end
I feel that I have relaxed a bit but am still unconsciously wound up
This feeling is probably what the dragon lady felt like
sleeping on the rope? (Chinese myth)
Waiting, waiting…..
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October 2017
It’s the deep night and I can’t sleep again, I feel like I’ve been staring into space until now
I think I’ve done something wrong, I’ve always said that this time, it’s a gamble
'If your heart is in the dream, it will come true. If you can’t make it, try again’
These lofty aspirations are full of hot blood…
But what happens after you go all in?
After boiling, I feel nervous…
We Libras really are a bit confused
This year it’s my 26th birthday
For all this, we’ve all waited too, too long
All the things that I can’t wait for I will express to myself, to you guys, to the whole world
I will not disappoint you guys
Thinking like this, at any rate this is a gamble, so I have to prepare wholeheartedly
There is no luck, it’s expecting the worst
It’s probably because I like to keep the air conditioner on at 16 degrees celsius, a man who’s hot blood can’t be cooled
Knowing clearly what the results will be but refusing to believe it, insisting on making a gamble
Gambling for youth, sweat, self-confidence, love, and dreams
for the people who have selflessly gave me love
So who can tell me how to do the calculations?
No matter how I think about it, I think it’s worth it
We Libras are also really resolute, right
Even though others say, 'you guys are clearly stubborn’
Yes, that’s pretty good too
Isn’t it great that my second son has the same birthday as me?
Wishing him a happy birthday too
Thank you guys
Thank you”
